Maria Hyland
It’s been a couple of years since I got as engrossed in a novel as I was in this one. I had great empathy for the 16-year old Lou. I didn’t read it thinking “that’s exactly how a teenager might think” but on a closer level of connection.
We meet Lou flying to the USA on a year-long exchange programme for talented school kids. She doesn’t want the piece of chicken in the airline food tray, and offers it to a fellow passenger. “Oh no,” says the woman, disgusted. This miniature vignette shows us a familiar middle-class obsession (fear of germs) and Lou’s ignorance of these standards of behaviour.
She comes from a mediocre background in Australia. Her family are tough and cynical, but loving in their own way. Yet, in a ruthless streak that shows itself again and again, Lou does not miss them, and it is her great plan to escape from her family and stay on in America. She is prudish where her sisters are crude, disgusted by their manners, frustrated with her parent’s limitations. This emerges in her frequent flashbacks to life back in Australia.
For a while I thought it might turn out she sees the hyocrisy of the suburban middle-class host family she is staying with, and comes to an insight that she loves her family for all their faults. But no, Lou is made of harder stuff.
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There’s a strange sense of disengagement going on with Lou. Partly it’s because she’s in a sort of pretend-situation – acting as a member of family with people who she will leave after a year. Partly it’s her nature. She recognises it herself, and at one point says she wishes she could miss people. Later she fantasises about someone – no particular person in mind – she hasn’t seen for years walking through the doors, “so that we could have a heartbreaking reunion.” But then she realises she doesn’t feel that way about anyone. She wonders if there is a sub-species of the human race that is capable of that joy. (Significantly, she is too healthy-minded to think that there is something inhuman about herself.)
There is the constant sense of a keen thinker who is in a continual process of deciding what kind of person to be. Such concerns are heightened in a teenager – if the author chose an older protagonist it would be a more philosophical novel. Lurking in the hectic events of the story is the dangerous idea that everyone starts as an actor and grows into the part. Lou is on a path to find – not herself – but the self most likely to be successful.
Gertie, the old woman at the offender’s hostel, gives her practical advice: “Lou, you have to pretend to be somebody else for long enough to get yourself out of his mess.”
Lou reads Russian authors extensively and has scored in the top 1% of SATs. However in her private musings she never shows much trace of this intellect. My guess is that this is an authorial decision in order to keep the book marketable. It is not acceptable for the modern reader to be exposed to such reflections. Imagine the marketing manager’s reaction: slows the plot … heavy-handed … show us what she does, don’t tell us what she thinks … makes her sound pretentious.
I value it most for the irreducible insights. At one point Lou sees a mother in a mall beating a child. She walks towards the mother to intervene; but her host-parents hold her back. “There’s nothing we can do.”
The book plays it by the rules as regards pruned sentences, short paragraphs, snappy dialogue, new crisis every couple of chapters, keeping flashbacks short, ending sections with a pregnant sentence. It’s not this writing ability that impresses me and makes me love this story.